I used to say I was terrible with change. Hated it. Tried to avoid it as much as possible. Fought change until I couldn't fight anymore. Funny. Because now I have learned to embrace it... even if there is a little bit of bittersweet to go with the excitement of change.
What am I talking about? A lot of things. Juan and I are very close to figuring out where we want to be in a year or so. (Location wise.) It's narrowed down but is still a matter of job and logistics. I'm uber excited though a little sad to think of leaving Lubbock... okay.. Really, just leaving my gym. I am in love with working out in my gym's pool every day. However, I know this isn't our "forever" home and am eager to find our spot of heaven and get a place with a backyard before my kid's too old to play outside.
Life is changing for my mom as well. She's doing pretty well with the radiation treatments and those will be winding down this week. Once she recovers from the fatigue and whatnot, she'll hopefully start to feel like her old self and it will be just in time for a visit from her one and only daughter (er, me) and her awesome grandson. We talked a little last night about the future for her and she said she wasn't going to go back to work. Due to her diagnosis, she will, in a way, retire early. She said this really made her think about life and how she doesn't want a stressful, thankless job now that she's had to kind of fight for her life. Her and my step-dad decided to put their little peace of heaven up for sale due to the not-so-wonderful winters and the distance from "civilization". It's exciting because they hope to move down to Florida (though I am lobbying hard for Texas re-location) and will be closer to us than they are in Idaho now. But it's sad because I know they love their Idaho property and that place just has this wonderful sense of peace and beauty to it that will be hard to replicate anywhere. But, ya know, they're getting older and they decided it's more important to make those memories with their scattered family than to spend the rest of their years up in Idaho without us. I get it. I support it, but I think I'll be a little sad on my trip up there because I love that spot of heaven..
So, this next year is anyone's guess as to where Juan and I'll be living, where my mom and step-dad will be, and what we'll be doing. But it's also exciting to think and dream about our future and to work towards goals that have always felt so far away. I hope to be done with my associate's before the end of 2012 and might start trying to get my foot in the door at a clinic or hospital as I begin to work on my bachelor's. Phoenix is almost done with his first year of preschool and might start full-day preschool next year depending on where we are. Life is changing. It's all good, but a little bittersweet as I think about the things we'll say goodbye to. Luckily, the excitement about the things we'll say hello to completely outweighs the little bittersweet feeling.
